Resolved to Live As a New Creation

This is what I resolve to do, this and every year, this and everyday, this and every moment.
To yearn for Him more deeply, live for Him more passionately, seek Him more fervently.
It is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me.
It is no longer I, but God who works in me both to will and to work for His good pleasure that which He has established for me to walk in from before the foundations of the world.
I will fail at my resolutions, but His will shall surely stand, His purposes will endure, and His plans will prosper.
And this is His will: that I would be conformed into the likeness of His Beloved Son – with whom I have died, by whom I live, and in whom I stand.
He cannot fail, He will bring about all He has decreed, fulfill all that He has promised, bring to completion every work He has begun.
I have hope because I am confident in His love for me, confident in His faithfulness toward me, confident in His good work in and through me, confident in His sovereignty over me.
He is God over me. He is God in me. He is God with me. Emmanuel.
It is only by His grace that I am what I am, and it is only by His grace that I can resolve to be who I will be.
The goal is not to become a better/skinnier/faster/healthier version of myself, but rather to die to myself and live to God.
The goal must not terminate on me, but must exalt His kingdom, display His glory, and magnify His name among the nations.

So, this and every year, this and everyday, this and every moment
Make Him your treasure
Rest in His work
Be sustained by His love
Be led by His Spirit
Be satisfied in the river of His delights

You have been born again into a living hope
Let hope arise again in your heart
Where darkness has blinded you to the Truth
Let hope arise
Where discouragement and depression have ravaged your soul
Let hope arise
Where rejection has left you bitter
Let hope arise
Where comfort has lulled you into laziness
Let hope arise
Where shame has condemned you
Let hope arise
Where fear has crippled you
Let hope arise

Do not be afraid
Do not fear
Run with abandon into the unknown
Dance in the mystery
Risk everything
Hold onto nothing
Exchange the temporal for the eternal,
The fleeting for that which will remain
Hold fast to Him and rest secure in His arms

.:i am giving up myself for lent:.

I am giving up myself for Lent.

Myself for all that He is

My ashes for His beauty
My guilt for His mercy
My sorrow for His joy
My wounds for His healing
My chains for His freedom
My weakness for His strength
My heart of stone for His heart of flesh
My sin for His righteousness
My death for His resurrection
My life for His glory

A beautiful exchange
A holy transaction
A living sacrifice

He is my portion and my inheritance
My very great reward

Whom shall I desire besides Him?
Is there any other more worthy of my affection?
One who is more deserving of my sacrifice?

This is the journey of sanctification
From dust to glory
From the Garden to the Eternal City
From the House of Slavery to the Promised Land
He guides us with a cloud by day and a fire by night through the wilderness of this life
The sorrow and joy in the land in between

He prepares in our hearts the way of the Lord
A highway for our God
The path of righteousness
As we walk down this narrow road
He is the voice behind us saying,
“This is the way, walk in it.”
The way of humility
The way of love
We follow where He leads

This is a fast unto feasting

It is not about something being withheld from us
But the laying down of that which is holding us
That we might lay hold of Christ and all that He has stored up for us
It isn’t a contest of will power
It is the surrendering of our will to receive His power
The emptying of ourselves
That we would be filled to overflowing with His life, love, and eternal power

To identify with Him in His death, that we might live with Him in His resurrection

There is no resurrection without the cross
There is no life without death
There is no strength without first being weak
So we humble ourselves that He would be exalted in us
We boast in our weakness, that He might display His powerWe are confronted by our need for Him

The wounds that must be healed
The debt that must be repaid
The brokenness that must be restored
The life that must be rescued
The soul that must be redeemed
The heart that must be regenerated

May we live like Him in every way
As He lives in us
As He loves through us
We are conformed into His image
Transfigured into His likeness
As we journey to the cross
Climbing the steep hill of Calvary
We see Him more clearly
We know Him more fully
We love Him more deeply

Let this not be a season, but a cycle
Not just 40 days, but a lifetime of repentance
Of glad submission to the Father
Of obedience to the Son
By the power of the Holy Spirit

Amen.

Trust in the goodness and generosity of God

He is ever-giving.
Even in the taking, He does so to give something exceedingly and abundantly better.
He only gives good gifts to His children (James 1:17)
He is good.
Even when everything else is not.
And He is working for our good.
So in the midst of evil, we have the assurance of hope.
Even evil is subject to His will.
It is as clay in His hand.
Conforming to His commands. Submitting to His sovereignty. 
He redeems all for His good purposes.
That your suffering may lead to joy and your joy may be perfected and complete in Him.

Trust that He is good.

Ready for the King

We are forerunners
We are the ones called to prepare the way for King Jesus
We are the voices crying out in the wilderness,
“Prepare the way of the Lord!”
We prepare the way for the One who has come before us and will come again
We are not fit to unlace His sandals
But He has called us friends
No longer are we servants
For a servant does not know what his master is doing
We are friends of the Bridegroom
He is our Good Shepherd
We know His voice
And He has told us of the things which are to come
So that when our eyes behold them we would know that He is near
At the very gates!
That we would not be those who are easily deceived
But we will be a people made ready
A people awake and sober
Dressed for action in beautiful Garments of Righteousness
Prepared to prepare the way
A voice of hope, proclaiming the return of our Lord
For we are not in darkness for that day to surprise us like a thief
But we are Children of Light, we belong to the day
We are not afraid
His coming is the longing of our souls
Like a fig tree proclaiming that summer is near
Or the darkened clouds which tell of a coming storm
We know the signs, the times, and the seasons
Though we do not know the Day
The Bride will be made ready when her Bridegroom comes

.:the vision||the mission:.

THE VISION

The vision is abandonment of self

Abandonment of sin

Abandonment of  house

Cars

Clothes

Mother

Father

Husband

Wife

Job

Dreams

Desires

Whatever it takes to see Him clearly

Whatever it takes to see Him fully

To see Him rightly

The Vision is Him

The Vision is GOD

The One to whom every knee of humanity will bow

Every tongue will be tamed and finally proclaim

“He is God!”

“He is King!”

He is not just a prophet

He is more than a teacher

He is the Christ, the Son of the Living God!

But how will they know unless they have heard?

How will they know unless they have seen?

He has declared us to be His witnesses!

He has given us the vision!

To help others see what we have been shown

We are the voices crying out in the wilderness

“Prepare the way for the Lord!”

With a mighty shout!

We will testify to that which we have heard

We will boldly proclaim all that we have seen

Mountains will crumble and plains will arise

And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed for all to see!

Behold your God!

Behold, the Lord God comes with might!

Riding on the clouds

We will see Him and the fullness of His Kingdom come

It will be on earth as it is in heaven

The Kingdom unveiled

The curtain that was torn will be removed

No longer will we see in part

Never again will we stare through a mirror dimly

For He will give us eyes to see the vision fully

The vision is Him

The vision is GOD

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THE MISSION

This mission is not a trip

It doesn’t fit nicely into a weekend retreat

It refuses be called a service project

It won’t be checked, crossed, or marked off a list

It can’t be passed off to the “missionaries” and “radicals”

This mission will claim your life

It will consume every moment of your existence

It is entrusted to the engineer, the banker, the student

The stay-at-home mom, the lawyer, and the fast food worker

It doesn’t have preferences and it will not make exceptions

It is not a suggestion, question, invitation, or proposition

It is a command.

It is a life lived on purpose

Submitted wholeheartedly to the sovereign will of God

The call resounds,

“GO! Take the vision and run with it!”

To every co-worker, classmate, and family member

To the hopeless and broken

To the prideful and arrogant

Find the lost across the street and across the hall

Over deserts and seas

Through jungles and mountains

GO!

Baptize them!

Teach them!

Behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age

Do not fear!

Do not be afraid!

Stand firm!

Be strong and very courageous!

As the Father has sent me, so I am sending you

Receive the Holy Spirit

I am the One who is with you

I am the One who is in you

I am the One who has overcome the world

This is the inheritance of the saints!

To receive the power and authority given by the Father

You are co-heirs with me, seated with me in heavenly places

This is who you are!

Now GO!

Throw off every hindrance, excuse, doubt, worry, and insecurity

Don’t let them entangle you any longer

He cannot profess himself to be my follower who does not go where I am leading

Enter through the narrow gate and follow the narrow way that leads to life

This is the road I have taken

If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me

.:identity:.

Hello everyone I love!

So I definitely miss warm weather and sunshine. It’s still cold here in Kansas City but I am joyful nonetheless, haha.

I’m in Higher Grounds Cafe here on Base trying to get some internet time before class. Then 6 glorious hours in the Prayer Room offering sweet incense to the Worthy One, oh how I love Him…

So two Thursdays ago I started an inner healing class called Pure Heart with all the other interns and I have been super nervous and super excited about it at the same time. It’s pretty much what I’ve always needed without even realizing it – somewhere I can share all of the deep junk and mess that’s in my heart, see what wounds my heart has been carrying that I wasn’t even aware of, and talk about deeper struggles than “I’ve really been procrastinating lately” or “I haven’t been keeping up with my quiet time”. Ah, it’s going to be so good.

The reason I share this with all of you lovely people is because I would love if you all would keep me in your prayers specifically in this area for the next six weeks. Although this is very good and quite necessary for me, it will also be very difficult. There is a lot of spiritual warfare that happens when you start to pursue inner healing – things you aren’t even aware of start to come up, suppressed wounds and memories have to be faced – and with all of these things coming up there is a lot of accusation, torment, and condemnation that comes as well.

The leaders asked all of us to have people covering us in prayer and we take this journey of inner healing and self-discovery, so all of your prayers would be more than welcomed and much appreciated.

Other than that, the Lord has really been giving me so much insight into not only what He wants me to do with my life, but also who He wants me to be. This has been something  I have been asking Him about over the past several months, that He reveal to me WHO  He wants me to BE and not just WHAT He wants me to DO. He has bringing up identity issues that I have struggled with over the years and showing me through His written word and prophetic words from others what my true identity is in Him.

Titles like Bride, Son, Priest, Prophet, Judge, Beloved, and so on…

So let’s take Son for example.

So many times when women read this word in the Bible, we get offended and like to change it to Daughter. But he thing is, it is Son for a reason. This title is not about the gender but rather the position it describes. As a firstborn Son, you get the inheritance of the Father – His throne, power, and authority. This doesn’t mean that we become God, not at all, but as it says in Ephesians 1: 5 ” In love He (God) predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of His will…”

…and in verses 11-14 it says, “In Him (Christ) we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the counsel of His will, so that we who were the first hope in Christ might be to the praise of His glory. In Him you also, when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in Him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, who is the guarantee of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it, to the praise of His glory.”

…check out the verses too – Ephesians 1: 15-23, 2: 4-7; Romans 8: 14-17; Galatians 4: 3-7; Hebrews 12:5-8; Revelation 20: 4-5 (this is our inheritance as Sons of God and co-heirs with Christ)

There are many other passages throughout Scripture that confirm and explain this facet of our identity in God through Christ. The key point is that we are only Sons of God through Christ (Romans 5:1). He is our only way of being reconciled back to God, having right standing before Him, and counted holy and righteous that God through His Holy Spirit might dwell inside of us! (Ephesians 2: 12-22) This has to change our worship. Christ died for sinners not only that we may be saved from the wrath of God if we believe (Romans 5:9-11), but to adopt us into the family of God, and share His inheritance with us. If you look at Ephesians 1: 20-23 (Christ’s inheritance) and compare it with Ephesians 2:4-7 (our inheritance in Him) it makes it all so clear. This also changes how we live our lives here on this side of eternity. It says that all things were placed under His feet and in Romans 8:37 it says that “…we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.”

So why are we found in fear, anxiety, and worry so often? All things have been placed under our feet through Christ! We don’t have to wait for it until we get to heaven, He has declared it over us now. We must walk in all that He has declared us to be in Him. We must walk in righteousness and holiness because that is who He has declared us to be. If He had not justified us (declared to be right in God’s sight – Romans 8:29-30), then He would not be able to dwell inside of our human frame. For He can only dwell inside that which is pure, holy, and blameless, just read in Exodus about preparations for the temple and the priests. If there was even one hint of impurity He could not dwell there and if a priest had not properly consecrated himself, he would die in the Holy of Holies. But through the sacrifice of Christ we were made the dwelling place of God, not just a temporary habitation when we are really doing well with our church attendance, praying, reading the Bible, and not sinning very much. He has declared us holy and therefore a fitting place for His Spirit to dwell (1 Corinthians 3:16-17). We are loved by God! Out of a revelation of this kind of love, we must be compelled to love Him in return (2 Corinthians 5: 14-15). We must walk out daily what He has already declared us to be. We have authority and power; we are loved passionately and never abandoned; we are holy and blameless in His sight.

*To clarify, just because we have been justified does not mean that we can continue in sin (Hebrews 10:26-27; 1 John 3:1-10; Romans 2:13, 5:18-6:4). It is rather a position which God has called us to live in, therefore daily working out our sanctification (process of becoming holy).

As you can tell, this has been on my heart a lot lately. Mainly because the Lord is trying to convince me of these truths, that I would find my whole identity in Him. And when I see myself in Him, I no longer deal with insecurities, doubt in my worth, and live in fear and loneliness. It is my heart for each and every one of you, that you would find your identity in Him and not in man. He alone is the one that we live and long for. He has loved us with an everlasting love, and we are called to love Him in return with our entire being. I charge you to search the scriptures and ask the Lord for wisdom and revelation concerning this matter. He wants to tell you what He thinks about you and to lavish His lovingkindness upon you through His Word.

The Church will receive power when we know who we are in Him and are not daily beaten down by the world. His joy is for every season of the soul, and our identity is everlasting because He is everlasting as long as we continue to abide in Him and His love.

Just ask the Lord what He thinks about you. He is waiting for you to invite Him to share His heart and His thoughts toward you.

Please be praying for clarity for what the Lord wants me to do after this internship. He is moving me in a direction that feels right and I want to make sure that the next steps are in His will. I am so excited to see what the Lord will continue to do during the rest of this internship and what he will do after.

*Also, I auditioned for vocals here at IHOP and I got approved to be placed on different worship teams here, whenever they need singers. So I’ll be singing with Clay Edwards Tuesday the 18th and Wednesday the 19th at 12 midnight. You can watch the Prayer Room online at this link: http://www.ihop.org/Publisher/Article.aspx?ID=1000058181

Blessings to all of you, I miss and love you all.

Have a great week!

.:time:.

So it feels like it’s been months since I have been on the internet, haha. My apartment doesn’t have internet so the only time I can use my computer is when I can come to the cafe here on Base.

In a way it’s really good though. Besides sharing with all of you how things are going here, I’m discovering how much I really don’t need the internet….. or a TV, or whatever else I’ve wasted my time doing in the past. When you don’t watch TV for 3 weeks, and find you’re still alive, you start to think about all the other things you could fill your time with and it not be wasted.

I was talking to my friend earlier today about this and I figured out the reason that we waste our time on the things that don’t matter is because we are constantly surrounded by those very things. There are at least 4 TV’s in my house, 2 computers and a ton of movies. Wasting time is so easily accessible and convenient, so why not do it?

Being here and separated from those distractions has completely changed how I view my time. Every hour is so precious, and when filled with the right things, it produces so much more fruit in your life and growth becomes an everyday occurrence.

Ask yourself some of these questions:

  • How is what I am doing right now edifying my Spirit?
  • How is this encouraging growth in either myself or someone around me?
  • Is this glorifying the Lord and pointing myself toward Him?
  • Could I be doing something more productive with this time that I have been given?

Time really is a gift from God and we were created to be fruitful and multiply. I know when we hear that, we think about reproducing children, but apply that commandment to every area of your life and see how you live differently. It reminds me of the Parable of the Talents in Matthew 25. You can read it for yourself, but it speaks to me that God has entrusted to us certain things until His return and He doesn’t expect us to waste those things (whether it be time, gifts, possessions, our job, our children, etc.). He wants us to see that everything we have, He has the power to either take it away from us because we have wasted it, or give us abundant increase and favor because of the way we have stewarded those gifts. Jesus says in verse 29,

“For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance. But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away.”

Proverbs 12:24 says this,

“The hand of the diligent will rule, while the slothful will be put to forced labor.”

Proverbs 13:4,

“The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing, while soul of the diligent is richly supplied.”

*btw – if you want to feel convicted about the way you are living your life, just read out of Proverbs every once in a while. It’ll give you a nice kick in the butt when you need it, haha.

This may sound strange, but I really like being convicted. Because unlike condemnation and shame, conviction actually calls me unto repentance, edifies my inner man, and aids in the process of sanctification. My pursuit of holiness hangs on my response to the conviction the Lord confronts me with. And if I realize that the fruit of conviction is holiness, then I can see how incredibly strong the Lord’s love is for me. He is jealous for my heart and He wants to make me holy so that I might be able to be with Him in His presence forever (John 17), so he wages war against my sin until I am without spot or blemish.

I really love the Night Watch so much. I go into Misty Edward’s and Cory Asbury’s sets sometimes, and they are always amazing, but it is so crowded in there! You really have no space for yourself and it’s kind of hard to concentrate with so many people around you. Cory’s set definitely isn’t bad, but yesterday I went in for Misty’s set, and I couldn’t believe how many people were in there. But yeah, the Night Watch is awesome because unlike the daytime, it has pretty much the same people in there every night. We have our own community and I love it because it makes getting to know people so much easier and the atmosphere is much more intimate. I was thinking about it the other day too, that Scripture talks a lot about how people rise early in the morning and cry out late at night to the Lord, and I get to do both! We are in the Prayer Room from 12 midnight – 6a.m., so we pretty much get both which is awesome. AND I get to go see that daytime sets if want to also. Pretty cool.

I could go on more about what’s been happening here and what the Lord had been doing in me, but then you all would be reading far more than you would want to. So if you have any specific questions, just leave a comment on here or get a hold of me on Facebook. BUT what would be really awesome is if you sent me a letter. I LOVE LETTERS, but I haven’t gotten any yet and my mailbox has been pretty lonely for the past few weeks, ha. Really though, I love getting letters and would love to hear from you all since it’s hard to call or get on the internet here. My address is on my About Page if you want to check that out.

I miss everyone and hope everyone is doing well. I’ll try to get on here sooner next time!

With love from Kansas City

.:there are actually 25 hours in a day:.

So my first day was quite intense.

I got a shuttle to IHOP and ended up getting there 2 hours early with two huge suitcases and  nowhere to go. I thought, man how stupid was I to leave from the airport so early. So I stood outside awkwardly waiting for some brilliant idea to pop into my head of what I should do next. Eventually I figured there had to be a nice person at the front desk who could help me out. I ended up meeting the sweetest lady who let me keep my over-sized suitcases behind the front desk.

I was so excited that I got to go in the prayer room within the first 10 minutes of getting there. I sat down and was so relieved to be where I was at that moment. So I began journaling a  prayer and it ended with this statement:

May you move how you desire to move

A few minutes later, my friend Emily, who is also up here, called me asking how I was settling in and if I wanted to go to one of her seminars she was doing for the Commission program here at IHOP. Lou Engle was going to be speaking and I was so excited to hear him in person because he is such a man of passion.

Long story short, he spoke about the Nazarites and how they consecrated themselves wholly unto the Lord, not even cutting their hair to show their full devotion to Him and not to themselves. This is the jist of what he said to us:

The Nazarite similarly reflects the priestly lifestyle in that God’s people are to be a separated people and priesthood of God. But Nazarites live this life not out of religious duty, but rather out of a spontaneous movement of the Holy Spirit – love not legalism.

How far can you go in your abandonment for God?

We should desire not just to be good Christians, but radical lovers of God.

Go the whole extreme to love Jesus.

Prophets are forged in the desert of fasting not in the dessert of feasting.

A great mission calls for a great consecration.

Come out of your tent and step into God’s, he wants to use you in extraordinary ways.

Be separated from things so that you can do the extreme thing.

We are not just intimate with God, but also zealous for His name.

Open yourself up to be a landing strip of revelation.

It was a power message, and one I did not expect to hear within such a short period of time of me being here. The Lord was continuing me on this path of separating myself from the materialism of the world and used this powerful experience to not only remind me that I have consecrated myself unto Him for these 3 months, but that I must consecrate my entire being – heart, mind, and soul – unto Him fully for the rest of my days here on earth.

Later, I got my keys, moved into my apartment, met my other 4 roommates (whom I love), and met my apartment leader Abby. I kind of feel like I’m at summer camp – I’m a camper and the FITN leadership team are the counselors, haha. It’s a neat feeling.

Everyone here is so nice and I have already met a bunch of people who I know I will become close with, and that’s a neat feeling, too. The cool thing is, everyone comes from completely opposite parts of the country. I have met people from California, New York, Michigan, Minnesota, Mississippi, Florida, Ohio, Iowa. It’s incredible to have so much diversity among our group, it makes things interesting and allows for good conversation – everything from accents to food.

I ended up staying up a total of 25 hours yesterday/today (i’m still so confused) and I was running on about 4 hours of sleep from the night before.

Please be praying for my transition into the night hours and for the Lord’s movement during the next three months. I’m so excited to see what He is going to do and how is going to blow my mind.

I will try to update as much as I can, but the schedule is pretty packed. I miss everyone and hope you are doing well!

.:all i need is 100 pounds:.

So I am sitting in Kansas City International Airport, finally taking a breather after a jam-packed day and a half.

Now this jam-packedness, if you will, is pretty much due to my executing procrastination at it’s finest.

Who would attempt to pack for a 3-month internship in pretty much one day? I would.

But I think that’s how I work best, under pressure with no time to kill. In a way it shows how well I know myself. When I have a bunch of time on my hands, I do tend to kill it instead of using it productively. But everyone has their shortcomings – for me, I am on the long road toward discovering the lost art of time management.

And yet I somehow made it here with my life packed away in two suitcases (each with a 50-pound limit by the way)

Haha, and on that note, you know how stores have sales where if you can fit all of your stuff in one bag, you get whatever discount they’re advertising? I definitely think that airlines should do that too instead of this “50 pounds or less or we’ll charge you a $90 fee” scam. If it all fits I should be able to take it. I was so proud of the way I was able to fit so much stuff in such a small space, and at 5:30 this morning Delta crushed any joy I had by telling me I had to get rid of 17-pounds worth of my stuff. 5:30 was way too early for me to have to make a decision like that. But I did, and all I can say is it was slightly devastating. I had to hand over pretty much all of my hygiene stuff and a few other random items to my dad. It wouldn’t have been so bad had I not just bought pretty much all of it just the other day.

I just felt bad for the baggage check lady who has to tell people this all of the time. Luckily, I’m not much of a confrontational person and my dad was there to take everything I couldn’t bring with me. But what about the people who come to the airport alone?

The funny thing about the situation is that I was just talking to a friend of mine yesterday about this cleansing process the Lord is taking both of us through. This idea of detaching from material possessions and depending on God sounds great – in theory. But when you actually have to physically cut yourself off, in that moment it’s not so appealing anymore.

It only seems fitting though that I would be tested in this way. God has been pruning this part of myself quite intensely since around August of last year. Through various experiences, He began to convict me of my idolization of money and material things and I began to see through that conviction that He was more than enough for me. Needless to say, there was one point that I lasted 3 weeks with only $9 in my bank account. I survived because money, food, shelter, clothes, etc are not the source of life, God is. He only uses those things as a means to give it to us. So of course if I only see my current situation as my only reality, rather than as a part of a much larger picture, then I let bitterness and anger plague me and thus ruin what is to be a wonderful day of beginnings for me.

So I have all of my baggage, and inside is everything I need. I don’t need anymore and I could probably go without much less. God has blessed me and I must get over myself and my minor devastations to see the beauty in what He is doing in my life.

So now, I journey forward to find out how to get from here to where I’m going.

I’m sure a shuttle will do the trick.

.:don’t call it a comeback:.

Alright.

So it’s definitely time for me to take this blog off of the bookshelf and dust it off a bit.

For those of you who don’t know, today is the one week mark until I go to my internship at the International House of Prayer (IHOP) in Kansas City, Missouri. I’m sooo excited!

I want to use this blog, first as an outlet to pour out everything that I take in while doing the internship – what the Lord is teaching me, how I am growing, areas of conviction, exciting news, random thought blurbs, prayer requests, etc. Second, I am doing this to keep in touch with family and friends who have been supporting me both financially  and through prayer. I want to keep you all updated on what you have sewn into and how you can continue to support me through your prayers.

On that note, I would like to express my deepest thanks for those who have been with me as I have been preparing for this new path the Lord is taking me on. I have been so loved, encouraged, and strengthened through the presence of so many in my life.

As I said your prayers are much appreciated and I will continue to ask for them in the months ahead. For now, I ask that you would pray for:

  • safe and smooth travels to Kansas City – I haven’t ever flown by myself before, much less had to navigate through an airport… ah, Jesus help me
  • the girls I will be living with for the next 3 months – that the Lord would give us all grace to live in closed quarters with one another and for deep relationships to be cultivated
  • all others I will encounter – I pray for opportunities to be discipled and to disciple others.
  • revelation and growth in spiritual gifts – I desire that the Lord would use me for His kingdom and that he would reveal to me how I may uniquely do so as he has gifted me and I desire that I may grow in my knowledge and understanding of those gifts, that I would use them wisely and with discernment (1 Corinthians 14:1).
  • increased knowledge and understanding of the Trinity and how the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit each operates for the purposes of the kingdom as a whole and uniquely in my own life – I have been severely convicted about my small image of who God is and the extent of His power. I want to be in awe of Him and desire that this revelation would stir up within me great humility
  • the purging of my human nature – pride, lust, envy, anger, selfishness, the list goes on. I desire to be an empty vessel with nothing to offer God but my body as a living sacrifice unto His glory and fame (Romans 12:1-2).
  • sanctification as a new creation in Christ Jesus – it is the cry of my heart that I would be filled to overflowing with the Spirit of the Living God, that all desires of the flesh would no longer be desirable in light of the pleasures of knowing God. I pray that I would pursue holiness, not out of arrogance or pride, but out of humility and because God commands it of His children (Hebrews 12:14; 2 Corinthians 7:1; 1 Thessalonians 4:7)
  • a desire and passion for the Word of God – for too long my study of the word has been quite stagnant and I have found in myself a severe lacking in my desire to read and understand it, but the Lord requires that we not only hear His word, but do it as well (James 1:22; Romans 2:13; Matthew 7:24-27; Luke 8:21). So I pray also for the grace to be a reflection of the Word, which is to be a reflection of Christ Jesus himself (John 1)
  • a true hunger for God
  • discipline
  • humility

I could continue, but I doubt the majority of people reading this has made it this far, so I will end by leaving my mailing address which some have asked me for:

Alyson Thompson c/o Fire in the Night
3517 E Red Bridge Rd
Kansas City, MO 64137

I love all of you dearly!

Adios

Alyson